let's see how far we've come

no. 30

2011-11-26T04:03:00.000+08:00

You. You're just so beautiful inside and out. A very strong girl you are. I envy you. I'm sure many others feel the same way too. Your views on love and life; it's so amazing that I''m ashamed of myself, why can't I be more like you? Nonetheless, thank you and I love you :)

This is random.

MWAH2 and Twist!

no. 29

2011-09-17T03:00:00.002+08:00

Salam and Hello!

It's been a while, yes? Well, there were many times when I felt like blogging; during IB exam, after IB exam, during the holidays, when I got my results, when my beloved Grandma passed away, eid.. Those were the times when my emotions and thoughts were at their crucial point and that I just need to express them somewhere. But, I guess I was just too... lazy. Sorry.

So far life has been great. I'm currently in the western side of the world, Dublin, Ireland to be precise. To say that it's a dream come true would sound a little cliche but it really is. One step closer to reach my bigger dream which is to have that initial Dr. in my name and of course, to serve my people. So here's my plan: get a degree in medicine here, do my housemanship in the US for 2 years, work a few years in the UK, come back Malaysia and join Mercy, go to other parts of the world (preferably Iran or Somalia or somewhere), get my master in Malaysia to be an ENT specialist and work in Kuching. Sounds like a great plan? I think so too :) But let's just go with the flow and we'll see what Allah has in store for me.

Lastly, I wanna share this with you (Doa iftitah):

Rabbighfirli ( Tuhanku, ampuni aku )

Warhamni ( Sayangi aku )

Wajburnii ( Tutuplah aib-aibku )

Warfa’nii ( Angkatlah darjatku )

Warzuqnii (berilah aku rezeki )

Wahdinii ( Berilah aku penunjuk )

Wa’Aafinii ( Sihatkan aku )

Wa’fuainii ( Maafkan aku )

It's perfect isn't it?

Mwah2 and twist!

no. 28

2011-03-05T20:13:00.004+08:00

"I wanted so badly to lie down next to her on the couch, to wrap my arms around her and sleep. Not fuck, like in those movies. Not even have sex. Just sleep together, in the most innocent sense of the phrase. But I lacked the courage and she had a boyfriend and I was gawky and she was gorgeous and I was hopelessly boring and she was endlessly fascinating. So I walked back to my room and collapsed on the bottom bunk, thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane."

Found this quote in someone's Tumblr so i googled it (you know, cuz I have all the time in the world...) So it's actually a quote from a book; Looking for Alaska by John Green. (p/s Alaska is the name of a girl). Read a review, got interested, looked for e-book, downloaded it, read it, LOVE it. I can say safely that John Green is my new favourite. It's interesting cuz it's from a viewpoint of a guy, and that teenage stuff is not all there is about the book. There's a sprinkle of love, pranks, sex, religion (even Islam), people's last words, tears, laughter, life... Damn I'm kinda obsessed with it.

& I wanna read Green's Paper Towns so badly! Couldn't find the e-book (& honestly I prefer reading real book made out of paper any time) so I hope they sell it in any bookstore in this country. :|

What else what else? Hmm I found out that when u google 'IUMC', this blog will come out in the search list. WHAT THE FCK. Aizat told me this and he read my blog which is kinda supposed to be private (Who am i kidding? u can't hide anything on the internet. *facepalm*) I hope I changed the right settings to avoid this in the future.

OOH! Watched Black Swan & it was like...

HAHAH! Bye!

MWAH2 and twist!

no. 27

2011-01-15T00:51:00.003+08:00

Magic No. 11

I guess it is time for me to update this abandoned and neglected blog after I-don't-know-how-long so first of all, I would like to scream HAPPY NEW YEAR! :) 2011 is gonna be great, I just know it. Two major things that I'm looking forward to is:

The end of IB. 2 years of good suffering is almost over in say, 110 days? Alhamdulillah, I managed to survive 3 grueling semesters + 15 days in KMB. Gotta say that I love this place, as a matter of fact I am currently wearing an 'I <3 KMB' shirt. Heheh.
Study in Ireland. This is it. The ultimate aim. Ya Allah, I want this real bad. The intake will be around September which means I'll be celebrating raya with family and loved ones. Phew~

All I need to do is pass up all assignments, rock my presentations, ace my IUMC interview (which will be held next week), obtain 36 points and above for the final IB exam. Boy, am I scared :|

Ouh, Mak's 46th birthday is today! Happy birthday, I love you a lot mum!

Anyway, congrats to Rosey, Ali, Mamal, Farah and others. They've managed to get a place in their country of choice and I'm sure they're gonna rock it there. Goodluck guys <3 Can't wait to see you guys real soon.
Before I leave, just wanna share some photos I find hilarious XD

BYE! ;)

MWAH2 & twist!

no. 26

2010-10-24T01:50:00.001+08:00

Boring Brick

Never have I respect someone of the same age so highly like how I respect D. She's a good girl, very smart indeed. I can talk to her almost about everything, stupid dirty jokes to religious stuff. HAHA contradicting much. Conversations with her will shift your perspectives about life (mine at least), her ideas always blew away people's mind (mine at least). Thank you for your advices, God bless.

I hope she won't read this. I'll die of her teasing.

MWAH2 & twist!

no. 25

2010-09-20T17:51:00.000+08:00

Holiday Is Over

Sorry again for the hiatus.

So here I am, in beloved (ehem) KMB, sitting in this class with Ozey, Nad and Alif. All busy preparing for tomorrow's Bio test except me, obviously. Not much to say, really just the fact that I am in Banting which is now said to be haunted by the infamous late Sosilawati. (did I spell her name right?) Sorry, didn't mean to be rude but this place is FINALLY known by everyone after the incident. I mean, during the Eid break whenever any makcik asked me where I'm studying now, they no longer ask me where in the universe is Banting, They will be like "Oh, Banting!! tempat Sosilawati di..... Did it happen near your college? Is your college in the jungle too? Be careful maybe they will haunt that place bla bla bla" You know what I mean haha but come on! Banting is not THAT small. The college is not even in Banting regardless of the name but somewhere near, yeah.

After a week or more, the holiday is finally over. It was really sad to leave Kuching but somehow, I'm glad that I do. Homeworks baby! && oohh the saddest part is when my family sent me off at the airport. The last words my little bro said to me was "It's a dangerous world out there. Be careful, take care. I love you." :'( How can you not love that kid? :((

Though it's been more than a week, I guess it's not too late to wish Happy Eid Mubarak to all Muslims around the world. cheers

MWAH & twist!

no. 24

2010-07-24T16:54:00.002+08:00

S.I.G.H~

I wrote something earlier but my laptop suddenly turned itself off. -.- So I don't feel like talking bout the same thing anymore.

I went to an EE workshop earlier today. It was helpful, thank God. I need to start on my essay, seriously. Well at least start on doing the research. Gahh I'm tired of being lectured. Hahaha.

Anyway, I have a basketball friendly tomorrow with KYUEM though we're supposed to have a real tournament against many other colleges too. Only the boys will have the real tournament. Pfft. But yes, Hasnor Farhana and Awang Adrian are coming!! Aaaahh familiar faces~ :)

MWAH & Twist!

no. 23

2010-07-19T15:37:00.003+08:00

Just My 2 Cents

Today is Monday and it's a holiday, guess this place have some love after all. Ngahaha. I just finished watching Tenacious D and the movie sucks, big time. I hear the word 'f*cking & f*ck' for every 5 seconds throughout the whole movie!

Sheesh and I noticed that the word f*ck is no longer a taboo anymore these days. To me, that word was the ULTIMATE swear word of all time and I wouldn't dare to say it. That was back then, but now it had somehow replaced other words that were once considered as rude such as 'suck, whore, bitch', you know and those words don't seem like 'harsh' words anymore as F*ck had replaced them! F*ck on the other hand is taking over the whole world! Almost everyone is using it (not gonna be a hypocrite by saying that I don't use that word, though I don't use it often XD) and and and, that word is everywhere! Examples:

When you are in:

DISMAY - Oh, f*ck it!;
TROUBLE - my life is f*cked up!;
CONFUSION - What the f*ck?!;
AGGRESSION - "F*ck you!";
INCOMPETENCE - "He's a real f*ck-off";
DISPLEASURE - "What the f*ck is going on here?"
NUMEROLOGY - "Sixty-f*ckin'-nine";
DISBELIEF - "Unf*ckingbelievable;
REBELLION - F*ck it!;
DISPLEASURE - What the f*ck's going on?;
HUMOUR- LMFAO (Laugh my F*cking ass off)
And worst of all, OMFG. =.= People, please especially Muslims, this involves God. Respect respect respect.

I got this somewhere, the elements of the word F*ck haha:

"The elements concerned are: Fluorine, Uranium, Carbon and Potassium and if you take the first letter of those 4 magg0ts, you get the very famous word F*CK!"

So what is now the ultimate swear word to replace what was then the ultimate swear word? Sigh~

Anywho, watched Gerhana yesterday a.k.a Eclipse haha. It was, ermm aaa hmm... plain. By the way, I am trying to practice the proper writing techniques. You know, no abbreviations for words, begin a sentence with a capital letter, capital 'I' for well, I? Ngeee!

Ooooh, Happy 32 monthsary :)

MWAH! and twist! ;)

no. 22

2010-07-10T21:00:00.004+08:00

WELL, HELLO SIR! :))

Sorry for the hiatus. I just realized how long I've been gone, about 5 months! I didn't even read any blog for the last 5 months (except the ones related to school stuff). So I kinda miss this, miss reading and typing things that bother me, or things that make me happy, or things that piss me off, or things that inspire me, as well as things that are worth sharing and.. saying.

Many things have happened this past few months and I can't recall every single bit of it. I had two midsem breaks and a semester break already which I failed to update here. I don't really know what's going on with my life and I'm seriously holding on with my principle 'just go with the flow' XD

As far as school is concerned (I still refer this place as school), there's a lot of huge events that InsyaAllah brings me a few steps closer to my dreams. I did okay (not excellent) in my last sem's exam of which is very important for me to get the university of my choice. I wrote my personal statement which i still keep all 5 drafts, all in the hope to impress people from the uni, blehhh.Next, I chose IUMC, RCSI, Uni of Melbourne and Uni of Western Aussie as the top 4 of my uni of choice of which the top 2 is in Ireland. (REMIND ME WHY DIDN'T I CHOOSE UK AGAIN?!) haih, and next week, I'll be having my mock interview. Allah, bless my soul.

Sigh, everything in my life at this point of time is so blurry and I'm trying to see through it to know what I'm heading for, no kidding. The one thing that keeps me standing is my faith in Him. and everything else follows. I still need my family, i still need my friends. The close ones, especially. They make me happy, without fail though yeah, they sometimes annoy me. But thts not a biggie, I can annoy them better XD I miss my friends back in Kuching tho we're all scattered all around the world now. We can talk about non-intellectual things all day long without feeling the guilt of wasting time. We can talk about shallow topics without feeling inferior to each other. We can act silly without anyone judging. I want to be surrounded by people who would never blatantly put me down or who judge me from the little things that I do. I honestly can't meet that kind of friends here. Here, I have to control myself a bit in a lot of senses. The way i dress myself, the way i carry myself, the things that can be said and things that can't, the way i laugh even! u cant laugh too loud or else they'll give you that disgusted look. BAHAHA. it's not that i don't be myself here, but i limit myself if ya know what I mean. Nevertheless, I can't deny that I have met a few decent and awesome people here who I grew to trust. thank u.

This is quite a lengthy post.

till next time! (only God knows when that is)

MWAH! n twist ;)

no. 21

2010-02-15T23:42:00.002+08:00

PMS is bad
ignore my previous post. now i know that MY pms is bad bad bad. abg said i cry easily and get irritated easily. everything is wrong when everything is just normal. well, everyone's like that *wink ;)

anywho, am back home now. it's good to be backkkkkkk tho i had a series of unfortunate events on the way back. it was all my fault and i cant never forgive myself for my stupidity. oh well, i guess everything happens for a reason. because of that stupidity of mine, i managed to buy a baju, watch vday, meet random ppl at the airport, spend time with beloved friends, n cuci mata perhaps? hahahaha

sigh~ this holiday doesnt feel like a holiday at all. going back to alcatraz in 2 days time. whaddahell. :/ i need to spend my precious time in kuching wisely. visited mum's friends for chinese new year n yay angpow mali :D, went out with haziq last nite (he's a handsome lad now. no longer a fat dude :P), and i just got back from wani's (mulut makin xpande diam & i loveee her hair :D), && hoping to see other ppl tomorrow!! oh ya, what about the tonnes of homework? blehh

love2

no. 20

2010-02-09T19:58:00.002+08:00

oh my goodness u're such a manipulative b!tch
u're so fake fake fake fake fck
u lied just to cover urself and u dont realise or maybe u DO realise that u make other ppl look like a fool. n u just laughed. OI wtf okayyy
u give bad comments about ppl but but y can't u realise tht u're not that perfect either
u think the world revolves around u, but honey it doesn't.
i believe in karma, what goes around will definitely comes around and kicks u hard in the face.
this is u btw, lidah bercabang

love2 :)

no. 19

2010-01-31T14:24:00.003+08:00

it was an awesome schmowesome week!
i managed to escape the boring, dull weekend life at college and went to spend a nite in KL. met my beloved besties and friends and boyfie and the feeling was incredible, i feel like im at home back in Kuching. not that i hate it here, but i was craving for those familiar faces and voices. we shopped, we ate, we watched movies, and basically we had so much fun.all my girl friends are all getting more gorgeous and fabulous, & only a few of my guy friends came, Ali n Abg. Ali is still cute as ever & Abg still looks handsome and hot and sexy and cute and dashing and smart and i should stop :D Hani is still so pretty and can not stop talking, Hasnor is still gorgeous as ever and looks so cool wearing her tiger tee ;), Rose is fabulous with her new hair and she's the best fashion advisor, tika is still short and cute & Amal is so tall and lean and looks very mature. I LOVE THEM & how i wish all my other friends can join.
So Azah n me were rushing back to college yesterday evening as we have that ladies night thingy. i was wearing the blue dress rose picked for me :) n my other friends are soo gorgeous with very cool costumes. there's a girl who we thought she dressed up as Dorothy from wizard of oz but when asked "hey, ure Dorothy ritttteee?", she said "i dont know, who's Dorothy?" =.= Another friend was wearing a very cool victorian-ish dress with big feathers on her head, and it looks soooo cool! she won the lady of the nite title and she really deserves it. there's a girl who dressed up as harry potter :D, and a few dressed up as witches and angels and OMG there's a girl who dressed up as a guy and DAMN she is a verrry handsome guy, with short hair puled back, skinny jeans, sneakers, white shirt, a skinny tie.. aahhh just plain cute. haha i'll date her if she really is a guy. :D i had fun nyways but the food is urrgh.
So today, after having a lot of fun for the last 2 days, im stuck with tonnes of assignments and homework and i havent started on anything yet. -.- i should go now. bye! & oh ya, im soo pissed with JOHN TERRY now. shyte
love2

no. 18

2010-01-24T18:04:00.001+08:00

highlights of the week! :
1. Went to Midvalley last Friday afternoon till around 9 pm with Naddy-K, Dinie DinDin & Ain because they wanted to buy some stuff for our ladies nite decorations. soooo the best part is, i got to meet Abg! :) teehee!
2. The KMSians went to KMB yesterday aaannnddd i got to meet Fakri n Tika! aahhh familiar faces. :)
3. i learned bahasa rempit from Dalila n damn it was hilarious! haha not that she is a rempit or something like that, but she's good at it. haha. i suck at it tho."a'elah mamat ni, poyo ah kau. jumpe kat simpang la! lebat jer cakap, pandai la kau tu nk kencing aku. muke kau tu memang tak bleh blah." (or something like that) GAHAHAHAHAH.

i think that's it. my ass-ignmemnts are waiting for me n i'm off watching movies. :D
love2

no. 17

2010-01-15T19:42:00.003+08:00

DONT YOU JUST LOVEEEEE WEEKENDS? :))

ok bye
love2

no. 16

2010-01-06T22:41:00.001+08:00

i miss doing surveys

ok, so im back in college now.its just the first day and its the worst day ever. and im not doing fine now, exam result is like slut. so yeah. i couldnt care anymore. plus, someone is being an effing asshole n i just wanna slap that person in the face. dang, im cussing again. :/ hmm so let's start

How many songs are on your iPod or MP3 Player?

- 1110 songs.

Have you ever made your own survey?

- do i look like i have all the time in the world to do that?

Does being in love make you gain weight?

- I WISH! :(

Dumbest person you know? and why?

- haaaaaa :DDD

What color is your bra or boxers?

- pink

Is love sometimes misunderstood for care?

- oh yesssss.

Does the person have to love you for them to get in your pants?

- ahahaha. yes
Sex only after marriage?

- definitely.

What do you think of hunting and fishing?

- for hunters and fishermen only

Is it okay for him to have a lot of female friends?

- hah! thts exactly the problem now. it is NOT okay. but it's nothing to him. however my bf is gay so there's no wonder why he has lots of girl/friends

Do your parents have a Facebook account?

- my mum has an fb acc. i helped her to sign up for it n u know wht, she doesnt even want to add me. -.- n thats great news! hahaha

Do you have a hard time admitting you're wrong?

- yes. i am always right

Do you have the perfect guy?

- no. there's no such thing as a perfect someone

What do you dislike currently?

- evrything is bothering me now

What are you listening to now?

- no such thing, john mayer hot stuff

What was your favorite childhood show?

- the lulu show. aww i miss that show! :(

Are you close to your siblings?

- my little bro, yes

What word do you use when people pass gas?

- oi! bauuuuu!

Do you wear glasses?

- at times

Where is your bestfriend now?

- who?

What can you hear right now?

- the song liar (it takes one to know one)

Did you feel better or worse or the same yesterday?

- worse
If you were a crayon what color would you be?
-
How is the weather right now?
-
Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
-
Favorite football Team?
-
What were u doing before this?
-

gahhh not in the mood to answer the remaining q's. I NEED SOMEONE TO CHEER ME UP!! :(

love2

no. 15

2009-12-28T02:10:00.012+08:00

you call it madness, i call it love
you know, i was really in the mood to blog just about 10minutes ago. n now that im starting to blog, i kinda dont noe what to say. you (if any) may not understand what i'm gonna say or find this post interesting or worth reading cuz seriously im just gonna type type type without knowing what im typing. i wont even read back what i typed because sukati i lah. somehow just i feel like typing!!!11!!1one!1one!
so anyways... :))

1. as the new year is just around the corner,like reallllly around the corner, i come to realise that i still havent really accomplished my resolution for this year, and the year before.. =.=' that is..

~ to use money wisely. i stil use a lot of my parent's money to buy unnecessary and unimportant things.

~ to appreciate everything around me. yeah, im workin on that.

~ to procrastinate less. this is the toughest one yet.

Im sad..

however, i did manage to....

~ speak profanely/curse/cuss/swear LESS. i was a really good/brilliant curser (is there such word?). i know a lot of swear words and i used them often. but nowwwww.... i swear less! like seriously. but i still curse, don't worry :p but then again, less. i know that cursing is bad. bad for our health, for our mind, for other people's impression, for our language. i even read this: link to lessen my swearing. hahaha cheers! XD

~ not quarrel/fight with big sis. i think it's because we seldom meet each other this year as im already in college. haha

~ anddddd the best of all is... i did manage to enroll in a good college!!! yay! i mean it's not the best college in the world and frankly, i will never ever love that place (it's a torture to be there) but i don't hate it either. but, i have to admit that it's a damn good one. with good teachers, good friends, really good academic reputation. how can i hate that place?

2. the truth is, i still do not know how blogspot works. i do not know the function of this and that. for example the 'dashboard'. why isit called 'dashboard'? n i do not know how to open the blogs of some of the people that is following me. tho there are only 6 of 'em. haha. i just couldn't find the link to their blogs. please help me. & i do not know how to put captions under pictures && everything here seems very complicated. another truth is, i don't know how to blog. but i think im doing the right thing. hahahhaa
I SERIOUSLY NEED TO READ BLOGGING FOR DUMMIES.

3. i somehow lost the links of the ppl i follow. so now there are only like 4 ppl in my list. so yeah. & i noticed that it's kinda hard to read my blog because of the 'very good' colour combination. hahah sorry. ctrl+a to read easily.

4. i still wanna enjoy my holiday. going back to Banting is no fun. no fun at all. im not ready to face the books and the teachers. especially after the last exam. i did real bad. real bad i tell u. and it's really frustrating. & i havent finished any of my assignments. i dont want to.

5. it is hard when we have different interests with the people that we are close to. it can be frustrating and perhaps annoying too. they like this and this, you like that n that. especially when you're in a situation where they (a group of people) talk, listen, discuss, argue, altercate, etc. about their 'thing' and you (alone) is clueless about the things that they talk, listen, discuss, argue, altercate, etc. about. so they kinda forget your presence during that time and you are left alone not knowing what to do. you try hard to catch up or even understand the heck they're saying but u just can't, it feels hopeless n worthless. so you, well in this case I then will try to be oblivious to my surroundings (to them particularly) to show my apathy or that i don't care or i don't mind because really, i don't mind as i dont have the rights to stop those ppl to talk, listen, discuss, argue, altercate, etc. about whatever it is. hence i will tend to just make some space between myself n those ppl and let them do their thing and ill do mine. i think thats just a way of me being respectful to their interests or passion and trying not to show my uneasiness or be a wet blanket by interrupting them when they talk, listen, discuss, argue, altercate, etc. (HAHAH i have to stop copy pasting these words :D). trust me, i tried, hard to like what they like. its a failure but i have no regrets. so my point is, i don't like this situation and i don't know what to do. it's frustrating. because of this, i feel like im alone in this world. i feel like i lost them and especially that one particular person that i am closest to. and is it my fault?

6. abg, i need u to work on something a bit. u know what i mean. ily nonetheless :) always..

7. aaahhh i just love coldplay. they make good music.

8. ed westwick, let me be ur jezzica szohr :p

9. i love adeline rapon.. she's a stranger,she's not even a model or someone famous (i think) but i just adore herr style.

10. i still can't believe that Tiger Woods cheated on her wife for 14 bitches. it's simply ridiculous. i even dreamt of him being my coach for golf as my golfing is worse than ever nowadays. hahaha. but u let me down Woods. i dont like u no more. :/

im sorry people, i love you. so let's bid a goodbye to 2009 and let's see how far we've come :)

love2

no. 14

2009-12-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

gained a lot of KILOs!!!! :DDD so happy!
anyways... you, it annoys me when we always try annoy each other. so stop it. ure losing. hahaha

so am at home now, watching my third movie for today. =.= and i want abg to come back to kuching now! u're supposed to be here.. :(

love2

no. 13

2009-12-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

you either walk on water or u drown.
it's exam time. i know right, how fascinating is that? haha. =.=' chem n bio down, a few more to go. CHEM WAS GILA. screwed up paper 1 like hell. i suck at calculating manually, i need calculator for god's sake! how can i calculate the number of moles on ppl's face without the precious thing! but it's my fault, really...sigh~
bio was quite okay, i smiled for the first one hour. haha. well, that's for paper 1. for paper 2, it was not bad too. i think.
n omg i heard that the result will come out during the holiday. they'll send the results straight to my parents! can i just have fun during my holidays please.

anyhoo, KUCHING IN LESS THAN A WEEK!!! yeeha!

wanna go here

love2

no. 12

2009-11-18T23:29:00.005+08:00

yeahh my fam's going to kl again this weekend. :) miss them already.

im bored. so i was looking through old photos and here are some random pics that i loike and i miss.

&& HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY SYG! :)) can't love u more :)

aaahhhhh :(

love2

no. 11

2009-11-14T20:42:00.001+08:00

weyh 11 already? :D
had a fun fun day. attended a great program but sadly i cant attend the one in december. how i wish i could! :( but then my holidays will be like only 4 2 weeks if i go. thats damn short but its gonna be fun. :(( nyways, today i learnt a lot about myself and others. relationship with people, communiacation, friendships..
OMG wey this is soo not me! this is so not me. shit this is soo not me. before this i dont even bother to talk or even to think about this kinda stuff. u know, school programs, or moral values or lesson learnt. hahahaha. but i noticed my previous posts mentioned a lot about these kinda things. i was WAYYYYYY different before. my friends will know. my family will know. before this i was the ms. watever (so they say) that do not AT ALL care or bother about those things ive mentioned. n i never believed in motivational talk and camp and i still are (i believe only i can motivate myself). but now, i noticed that i am more open to other people's say, ideas, opinions, advices, motivations, & craps like that.n now i think im less ignorant (but i still believe that ignorance is bliss :D) and i think about the world and people and surroundings more than i ever before. this place change ppl. eee gila scary. hahaha

anyways, my point and the most important point for this post here today is..........................................................................................,.......................................................................... *drum rolls*

BOYS WILL BE BOYS. THEY ALWAYS WILL. REGARDLESS WHETHER THEY DAH SUNAT OR BELOM OR MAYBE DAH KAWEN 4, THEY WILL STILL BE BOYS. CLUELESS, STUPID, HORNY (eh?) , SMELLY AND AGAIN, CLUELESS (as in the girl's feelings)

but.. we love them anyways. i rest my case..

love2

no. 10

2009-11-07T10:16:00.000+08:00

SHEEEEEESH! y do u have to be so sensitive about this. it was a question of mere C.U.R.I.O.S.I.T.Y. and U.N.C.E.R.T.A.I.N.T.Y. i didnt ask the question just to make you feel down about urself. my life aint that great, its tough. ure most welcome to step in my shoes and experience it urself n i have nothing against you and im surely not looking down at u or worst, insulting u. be mature lah ngek.

gahhhhhh. :/ oh well, at least today i am out of alcatraz prison! no stupid JPAM today. muahahaha. & the best thing is i got to spend time with family! (they came yesterday) :)) currently in kl and living life before losing it when i get back to alcatraz tomorrow. off to go shopping in a while to buy a lot of stuff for my super empty hostel room (& for myself).mhehe.

i'ma be verry verry busy for the next few weeks. oral testssss, folio, assignments, T.O.K, hafazan, testss again and of course the internal ib exam. sigh, plus our holiday is only for 3 oh-so-very-long weeks. ngehhh. && to you, goodluck for ur MUET :)

love2

no. 9

2009-10-29T00:06:00.001+08:00

thanks to you, im more independent. thanks to you, i learnt not to do the same thing to other ppl. it hurts, now i noe, so thanks to you.

many things happend these past few days..
i was shocked when u say that to me, no one ever says that to me before.not even my bestfriends. n who are you again? shit lah, i noe i made a mistake but its not a big deal. not at all. oh u don't know how much i despise u that time. that time. so now, im like that miss watever u met the first day. i couldnt care less,and now, i noe u didnt mean to say such word. a simple sorry is good enough 4 me. maybe i had a bad pms that day (it hurts weyh) so i tend to take everything to heart.

i must not be stubborn, i must not be lazy, i must not be rude, i must not be disrespectful, i must not be clumsy and the list goes on and on. This, i will say to myself everyday. This, i have to remind myself everyday, that having those bad attitudes will not make u the most loved person in the world. not that i'm THAT bad (i think), not that i have problems with ppl around me or that ppl have problems with me (i think), but by observing other ppl, u'll learn not to be like them. so sigh, i have to improve myself in every positive aspect of attitude. not drastically, but slowly. && i seriously need to improve my friend-making skills. hahaha. && i seriously have to remove procrastination as my middle name.

on top of it all, im learning to appreciate everything and anything around me and not to be judgemental. example, by being here in this kampung school. yes its a kampung school alrite, with rules worse than my high school's rules, with food worse than my cooking, with location worse than ermmm a plkn camp? lol. i learnt that i have no right to complain. this place is my passport to step my foot on the best university in the world, maybe in uk, maybe in ireland and that, is my dream.

so yes, im learning to be a good daughter, a good friend, a good student, a good follower, a good leader n a great person.
yada yadi yada. no one's reading this crap nyways.

love2

no. 8

2009-10-24T21:50:00.003+08:00

oh i rly want to go to cambodia. it would be a very good experience, i wanna meet the ppl there, the kids.. eat their food, experience their culture, drink the water from the river (haha ryte..),well, i wanna help them as best as i could ..& there's also brunei,the convention. i wanna go there too, i think it would be as great as the Great KLIMUN. can i go daddy? :((( this is one of the FEW reasons why i love my McB. lots of weird activities but at great places.
& i miss this not-so-little guy a lot! :(
cant wait to see you little bro. kak ee misses u sooooo much. i wanna hug u till u jadi kurus (which is imposible) I LOVE YOU, i need u here to make me laugh :(

love2

no. 7

2009-10-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

23 23 23 23 :)

yesterday was our 23 monthsary. yehaaa! ♥ you my keanu :)

currently in Dalila's house in putrajaya. got raya open house earlier tonight. some of my classmates n Teya's twin and also Evan were here. & luckily Nadd's staying here too, thank god coz i don wanna be alone when dalila's entertaining the guests. :D we went to the playground nearby and i feel like a kid again. haha. n my hands hurt (still) from hanging on the monkey bar. lol i effin love this area. very suburban-ish.

not much to tell. assignments are screaming 4 me but im too cool to even look at them. hah!

happy 4 me much? love2

no. 6

2009-10-11T23:04:00.011+08:00

hey2 its sunday!
for many many many people, it would and it should be a day full of joy and fun and happiness and all the good things. hey, its sunday :) however, not yours truly. to me, sunday is full of stress, depression, anger, all the bad things. hey, its sunday. a sunday in MCB. people are racing against time to finish the megaloads of ~~shitwork~~, sorry, i mean homework as tomorrow is a 'school' day for us. 2 long lab reports, itgs, the never-finished mathematics tutorials,and oh, as the icing on the cake, we're gonna have a bm standardized test tomorrow. pathetic much. i noe, im lame to post about this school or college stuff in a blog as its a cliche in student's blogs. ahah. XD

nevertheless, thank god my classmates organised this surprise bday party for our beloved ARNOLD, my class pet, i mean classmate. :D at least i can still have fun on this oh so fun day. so we were in the class, lights off, waiting for arnold n '~~japan~~' to arrive. n surprise! he was surprised. haha. n even worse, he actually fell! funny funny. we had this yummytastylicious cheese n oreo cake from secret recipe n we also had kfc. (mind u, not MCB's koperasi food court, ok? :D) gahh. &&& AZZEEM, YOU DIE TOMORROW! shoot, my face was half covered with cake because of u. i'ma get u tomorrow betch. anyhow, HAPPY BDAY DEAR ARNOLD SCHWARZENEGGER. :]

&&& oh! check out new straits time, 10th Oct. there's a picture of me! n my friends during our KLIMUN in inti-uc nilai. MCBians's pic is selected. ngeee!

okay, enough bull, lets continue with ur ass-ignments missy
fun much? XD love2

no. 5

2009-10-07T13:44:00.003+08:00

that's 'ez'. if u can't spell

:)))))

sweet much? love2

no. 4

2009-10-03T22:39:00.009+08:00

TODAY, I LOST MY KINGDOM. AND I LOST MY MOJO. AND I WANT IT BACK. AND I HATE BEING RIGHT BUT U MAKE ME FEEL WRONG. AND I HATE IT THAT URE CLUELESS WHEN URE OBVIOUSLY AT FAULT. AND AND AND AND I SOOO NEED A BIGGER FONT SIZE THAN THIS.

emo much? love2

no. 3

2009-09-30T19:50:00.003+08:00

A SMALL KID PEED ON ME.

FML worthy? nope. the kid is Adam, a 2 or 3-year old boy from PDK Semenyih, the place where we have to do our CAS [it's an IB thing] (its some kind of a community service) and its a place for people (usually kids) with down syndromes, autism, etc.. long story short, Adam was sitting on my lap quietly, doing his own thing, thinking of who-knows-what for about 10 minutes and the next thing i know, my kain baju kurung dah basah. yay! =.= luckily the teacher provided extra baju kurung 4 me to wear (they know this kind of accidents will eventually happen) haha. but i dont blame Adam, he's just a kid. a sick kid with a battery to operate his heart..

sad much? love2

no. 2.

2009-09-27T20:55:00.002+08:00

Went to eat rojak sumwhere in Matang with him. had ais jagung and i wow-ed. haha i never thought that ais jagung from others can taste as good as Swee Kang's. :D we ate and we talked and its already time to go back. i had this familiar feeling on the way back. i remembered the last day we went out before he's going to UM for the first time on the next day. i was sad and i cried and today, that stupid feeling came and knocked me again. i cried, again. yes,I AM A CRY-BABY. lol. i felt stupid coz im sure that im gonna see him very soon, tomorrow maybe. HAHAHA. but.. he cried, too (u ain't that tough syg :p)

Today, most of my friends have gone back to wherever they're studying, Some in kuching (uitm), some on an island (matrix labuan), some in the concrete jungle (taylor's, intec, um, etc..) and some, in a real jungle (kyuem, inti nilai, etc..). haha. and to ELLYZA MARINI, take care in Alexandria =(

How i wish we can still lepak together, eat together, spend time together and hmm take pictures together? lol. Sorry 4 not giving proper goodbyes to some of you or being with u at the airport. i wish ya'll the best and goodluck 4 the coming exams. THANKS 4 THE GREAT RAYA! and to farah hot hanun and ellyza pretty marini, sorry i havent got the chance to meet you girls at all this hols. =(

love2

no. 1

2009-09-25T21:35:00.001+08:00

this is my first ever post tho i signed up for this thing about 4 months ago. LOL so now i am officially a blogger. so.. HOORAY? and i have no idea on what to say, what to type, what to express and what to share for this first post and i dont think ill be updating this thing frequently so..see you (if any) on the next post! :D